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whatsworse?
someone told me today, that attachment brings suffering. i know it sounds super uncaring and to an extent morbid? hmm, but theres some truth in it. and human beings aren't solitary beings to say the least. i guess attachment is an innate quality in all of us, be it for support, cos let's face it, we can't do everything on our own, even though there are many who think they can, or be it for those who are just plain sick in the head as to abuse attachment and use others for their own benefit(hello, incase u were in happy-i-dont-giva-fuck-land, such people do exist). you see, attachment is all around us. we can't avoid it. heck, we're
born into it.
we are all attached to something or someone right? and it feels damn good when whatever it is that you're attached to is around, just there. in plain sight. and because we need to place meaning into things, people or watever, we unconciously build the pillows that (we hope) will break our fall when shit hits the fan. but not many people realise their attachments at all and often, we take them for granted. till its too late. well, i kinda guess thats human nature too.
so, you know how people say life's nothing if we haven't gt anything to hold on to? well, that's right too. but if you thought attachments the bestest thing in the whole bloody wide world, let me tell you something. its not. and it hurts. because you were stupid enough to put everything you have into things, animals, people. and soon, they leave us, whether you like it or not. thats the funny thing tho isn't it, things get lost/stolen, animals and people, they just leave us. they run away or walk away or die. it happens all the time, and we know it. so you know where suffering comes into this huh.
but what's worse? attachment or none of it at all? one things for sure tho, no matter how hard we resist it, push things away..
we can't control attachment.-
ps. i duno if i have the right to blog bout this. rui's friend's bro died and it kinda sucks. kinda have some relation to this if you haven't noticed. knowing its gon happen doesnt make things better. attachment just stinks.
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